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Saturday, August 19, 2006

rozi tahe yek bonbaste baz

midonin ye rozai hast to zendegi ke engar dige be hamon akhare khat residi va hichi e hichi dige vojod nadare ke adam be khateresh zendegi koni,vali midonin age onrazam yekam be atraf negah konim mibinim ke hanozam chizai monde ke bezendegi edame bedi,engare in jomle ke migan to naomidi basi omidast dorost dar miad ,ye roozai peida mishe ke dige az ini ke fekr mikoni bad tar nemishe,hame tanhat mizaran har chi hadese bad ke fekr mikoni vasat mitonest etefagh biofte oftade va dari fekr mikoni akhe khoda to aslan vase chi mano afaridi ha mikhast mano biari to in donya zajram bedi azyatam koni ,azmayesham koni?are man aslan rofoze ,khialet rahat shod khosh hal shodi ,are man zaif hamino mikhasti bedoni ,khob donesti mano bekosh rahat sham az zendegi,to hamin fekrai ke ye seri neshone yadet miaran ke in jai ke to hasti tahe khat nist hanoz khayli be taghato 2 khate zendegi va marg monde,age ye rooz residi be oon tahe khatet va fekr dige badtar az in nemishe yeki az oon neshoneh ine ke to ZENDEI va SALAMAT va bad tar az bade to in mibod ke dige zende nabashi ya naghsi dashte bashi.
neshone to in zendegi khayli ziade mese,pedar,madar,dost,khoda,eshgh,zendegi,.. vali midonin gahi oghat ma mese ranande hai mimonim ke ba sorat az baghale tabloha rad mishano onaro nemibinan va vaghti be bonbast mikhorim hes mikonim ke dige tamom shodo ma bayad ta abad to in bon bast bemonim vali age yekam be aghab bar gardimo be neshone hai ke oon mehrabon to rah nasb karde ye negah bendazi bazam mitonim be in jade bi entehaye por alamate zendegi edame bedim.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

gham,ghose,tanahi

vaghti soba az khab pa mishi vaghti dobare khorshido mibini va shoro yek rooze no ,ye chizi to tahe delet sedat mikone va mige emrooz mishe ye rooz khob bashe shayad emrooz mese rozaye dige nist,vase hamin az khab pa mishi,vali age ye rooz berese ke vaghti az khab pa mishi dige hichi to delet sedat nakone?
oon rooz rozie ke to marge khodeto aghaz kardi,maha har rooz ke pa mishim vaghti dobare yade gozashtamon mioftim ghamo ghosehamon shoro mishi .yade gozashtei ke etefaghi ke tosh etefagh oftade alan maro ghamgin mikone,nemidonam chera engar ghamo ghoseha tamomi nadare ,marg,bivafai,ghahti,khoshksali,jang,tanhai,... engar nemishe ke zendegi tosh gham nabashe,vali vaghti bishtr fekr mikonam mibina ke age in gham to maha nabod va age ye roozi miomad ke hichi mano ghamgin nemikard chi mishod?onvaghte ke yadam miad age man in ghamo nadashtam aslan adam nabodam kasi ke ba marge azizanesh ghamgin nashe,ba ranje hamjensash ghamgin nashe oon kas kas nist.
vali hamontar ke gham hamishe vojod dare,ye chize digam vojod dare va oon hamoni ke har rooz sobh az tahe dele ma maro seda mikone OMID,va oon hamon chizi ke maro to moghabele ba ghamo ghoseha yari mikone,omid be inke khodai hast oon bala ke maro komak kone,vali midonin gahi oghat in seda i ke tahe vojode mast az sedash kam mishe va be ye nafar niaz dare ke ba oon ham seda beshe va onjast ke adamaye dige be komak adama mian,va maha bayad refaghataye khodemono neshon bedim,akhe midonin in seda ke khafe beshe ,va kesi bi oon seda tanha bemone,shayad dige oon adam natone pishe ma bemone,chon adama ta vaghti mitonan ba zendegishon edame be dan ke bebinan yeki hamrashone va vaghti be binan ke dige hich ki nist ke bekhad harfashono beshnave deleshon mishkan,pas biaid ham digaro tanha nazarim va nazrim ke kesi delesh besh kane va kam kam khord she,biaid be ham dige in omidi bedim ke emshab ke mikhabim farda ba omide ye rooz e motefavet ba dirooz va kam ghose tar az dirooz az khab pashim.