khayli dardnak ya shayad khayli aram

bazi chiza khayli sade shoro mishan va khayl i sakht tamom mishan ,bazi chizam khayli sade shoro mishan va khayli sadam tamom mishan ,age bekhaim donbale mesal barashon begardim ziade,mohem ine ke befahmim oon chie ke mitone in tafavoto ijad kone ke yeba inke hardoshon asoon shoro mishan yekishon asoon va yekishon sakht tamom mishan.
man to haftei ke gozasht be in mozo khayli fekr kardam ,shorosham dar asare takhayolat fekri va tavajoh be mohit nabood balke in dafe az hese khodkhai khodam shoro shod va dastane in khod khahi ham az oonja shoro shod ke man az 3shanbe hafte pish to takht oftadam.
vaghti ke mariz shodam va to takht oftadam be in fekr kardam ke man be hich kodom az oonai ke har rooz ya ye rooz dar mion vasashon zang mizadam zang nemizanam ta bebinam key ona yade man mioftan ,omidvar bodam ke ta 5 shanbe ya jome be hem zang bezanan vali vaghti didam asre 5shanbe hich ki be man zang nazad in dige bimari nabood ke azyatam mikard balke in fekr ke hich ki toro dost nadare va vase to ahmiat ghael nist bood ke ranjam midad va in narahati edame dasht ta vaghti ke avalin nafar ke motmaen bodam miad vared shod onam ba ye kompote ananase 3 kilo i ,nemitonam begam to oon lahze che ghadr khosh hal shodam nemidonam vase kompote bood ya omadane oon(hamon hamid pesar ame geram)?vali fekr mikonam bekhatere oon bood.bade hamid kiavash omad ke shadiomo moza af kard na bekhatere inek ye kompot dige avord na chon nayavor balke vase inke alan 2 nafar bodan ke vase man ahmiat ghael shode bodan.
midonin shayad omadan ona ya zang zadane chand famile dige harkate khayli bozorgi be nazar nayad vali vaghti to marizi va hes mikoni ke in dard ya bimari mitone hata baes margetam beshe ba didane inke hanoz kesai hastan ke to zendegi to barashon ahmiat dari va vaghti nabashi nabodeto ehsas mikonan va vase bodanet arzesh ghaelan vase hamin pishet mian haleto miporsan va bahat tamas migiran onvaght ke be khodet migi to dige hagh nadari mariz bashi to bayad dard ro tahamol koni ta khob shi ta oona khosh hal beshan.
va az inja bood ke fahmidam chetor mishe ye shoro sade mese shoro hamin bimari 2 noo payan dashte bashe yeki dardnak va digari aram ,maha vaghti mitonim ba ye shoro sade be ye payane aram beresim ke ba ham bashim va vaghti mitonim be ye payane dardanak beresim ke tanha bashim.